its my birthday

Well its yet another year. The last was fun - cant really complain. This one started of real interesting. Stuck in Khartoum - funny place never thought this would be where I would have a bday this year.

The day started of at work - I was pretty bored and I think it showed. Then this afternoon I spent at a Spa - Khartoum style - facial mask had an odd burning sensation, I hope I dont wake up with hives tomorrow.

Mr. Man called to wish me happy birthday - is it me or are we beginning to have problems - Something is wrong he is drifting - damn and I really really love the dude.

Yesterday was really weird meeting with R - how do you react to a woman who clearly is in love with your man. I honestly dont know how to react. Im jealous and I cant do anything about it - Im embarrased I actually tried to show off to her yesterday - talking about all my international travel, but no matter what she clearly has a bond with him. Then I cant believe how much he has told her about us - How is it her business that he slept on the couch when he last visited. I know they talk on the phone more than we do. She is jealous too and it hurts her when she talks about him - if I wasnt soo sad I would laugh.

Well hopefully one day soon I will look at this and smile - I just wish it could be easy for us all. Hell of a birthday blog but nomatter what the problems on the social side - got to make resolutions.

This year
1. Pray more, I used to have a close relationship with God, thats kind of gone lately. Have to work at it.
2. Get the career really moving - wasted a perfect chance today - let a deadline skip; That will never ever happen again.
3. Lose the weight. I guess the diet starts tomorrow coz there is so much sugar in Khartoum but now I am serious. I guess the more I blog about it , the more I think about it, the more likely I am to do something about it.
4. Socially do more, hang out with pals more but less clubbing, maybd do one charity thing this year, get involved with a childrens home and be active.
5. Work hard at a relationship. I want marriage and babies next year - by Dec 2008. I have exactly 18 months to do that, 9 to meet Mr. Right and then get pregnant right away.


Well Im counting my blessings today. I have a fabulous family, a fabulous job, a fabulous boyfriend(atleast today he is) and a great life. Thank God for that. Happy Birthday.