Weight loss

I know earlier I have proclaimed that I dont want to lose weight but I have changed my mind. Many reasons have made me change my mind. I always thought I was real confident but I guess I am not.

Two weeks ago, my new love gives me a towel from his gym as a gift. When we pass by the supermarket (health section he wants to check out slimming teas). I hate hints like that but the message is loud and clear.

Then the other day at lunch one of my dear friends points out that every time I talk about relationships with men its like they are doing me a favour by being in a relationship with me. I was hurt and stunned by what she said but somehow when I really think about it - its true. Could my weight be the major reasons I dont have successful relationships.

This last weekend - my grandpa's funeral. It was sad listening to people murmer at how huge I had become. Especially as I sat next to my sister who is now a whole 12 sizes smaller than I am.

Then this morning, looking through my email, I see Dr. Claude's email - 2 years ago. Shape up or lose your job. I hated that mail and ofcourse rebelled against it like crazy. But he did have a point, I just hated hearing about it. Ive had quite a number of experiences that are not funny, when you have to ask for an extension seatbelt on a plane or visit a refugee camp where everyone is really thin and you really stand out - I guess his email makes sense.

So today I make up my mind to lose weight. And hopefully this will be a great weight loss blog.